Never had she ever fallen in love, but as she stood staring out her bedroom window, love was the only word that could possibly describe what she was feeling. Because as he stood there perfectly soaked, she knew that she no longer belonged to herself.
For a second she felt like it was the first day they’d met. Her staring out her window like always and he standing by the bus stop at exactly 7:15 a.m. That day he turned to look at her with the most beautiful expression she’d ever seen. He saw her staring at him while smiling, and he smiled back because he knew he felt it too.
Today as she stayed staring, he also stared back. He kept his posture and vision solely focused on her. I have no doubt that he knows she loves him, because she promised she always would.
Miss him is all she does. Hope that they will be together one day is all she thinks about. Most would say that she’s obsessed with what was but I say that she’s hopeful.
For a second it seemed as if he was about to go to her. Maybe he was, although she would never know. All she knew was that everything that they once had was destroyed by the one thing they couldn’t control, time.
After everything that’s happened she knows that she’ll never love someone the way she loves him. It was he who made it possible to be able to love and not want anything else. Thanks to him she knows what love really is.
As I stared out my window, I thought about what I had witnessed. The relationship that most people think could never exist, did. All of the flowers and the chocolates, things that I knew I could do for her as well.
The bus soon arrived and he had no choice but to take his eyes off of her. Not because he still loved her, but because he loved the memories that came with her cheesy smile. Time had made sure that no affection towards her was left in his heart. He no longer holds on to what was but looks forward to what life has yet to offer.
She’s hurting now, as she sees the bus pull away from the curb, but she realizes that he himself had pulled away a long time ago by taking himself out of her life.
Later that night I found her by the bus stop and I wiped her tears away, telling her that the first love is always the hardest and that the last love won’t be any easier, because in reality, true love is the most difficult thing we’ll experience. She laughed because I was supposed to be cheering her up, and here I was talking negatively. When I saw her laugh, I remembered every moment that we spent together this past year. Getting to know each other and falling in love even more. Every time I see her I know that I no longer belong to myself. It is she who makes it possible to be able to love and not want anything else. It’s thanks to her that I now know what love really is, and I’ll make sure that I bring real meaning to the words, “I’ll love forever.”
As I grabbed her hand and got on one knee I looked up and she was no longer crying. We stared into each other’s eyes and forgot about everything and everyone before the moment she said yes.
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